Grandchildren

My half-brother is having his first child,
My half-sister had her second child two years ago,

I eat my dinner with my father after hearing this news,
He asks me, "When are you going to have kids so I can be a grandfather?"

My brother and sister are not related to him,
"You have to continue the family line," he says.

"I don't want to have kids," I say,
"And why not? You are the last girl!" He states angrily.

I am too scared to answer him truthfully,
So I stick another big bite of food in my mouth.

Little does he know I will not have my own kids because I am a Lesbian,
I would much rather adopt a child who needs that second chance.

Would he not accept that?
Would he still love me?

Those questions burn in my soul,
They burn in my heart.

I eat the rest of my food in silence,
Wondering if that was my only chance to tell him.